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As you can see, I am writing you from Brussels. I thought it
better to change my domicile for the present. And that for more
than one reason.
In the first place, it was urgently necessary because the
little room where I lived - which you saw last year - was so
narrow and the light so bad that it was very inconvenient to
draw there. It is true that if I could have had another room in
that house, I would have stayed; but the people of the house
wanted that room for their cooking and washing, and I could not
have had it even if I had paid more. It is true that in spite
of everything I drew Les Exercices au fusain and Les
modèles d'apres la bosse de Bargue [Plaster-cast Models
by Bargue] there - either in the little room or outside in the
garden; but now that I am as far as the portraits after Holbein
in the third part of the Cours de Dessin, it has become
It had already been a long time since I have seen enough
pictures or drawings etc., and the very sight of some good
things here in Brussels has given me new inspiration and has
strengthened my desire to make good things myself.
If Mr. Schmidt would have the kindness to talk seriously
about it to someone or other, I do not doubt that the thing
could be satisfactorily arranged. He received me cordially, but
still, if you yourself would put in a word or two in my behalf
to recommend the thing to him, it would have more effect on him
than I could make myself. It would be quite natural if he
perhaps looked at me with some suspicion, because formerly I
was with Goupil & Co., left, and have now returned to the
So if you write him by return mail, you would render me a
great service, and it would prevent my losing time.
I immediately took up my work here, namely the third part of
Bargue, and I have a much better room here in a little hotel on
the Bd. Du Midi than the small cabinet I used to have.
Father wrote me that for the present I may count on
receiving 60 fr. a month through his intermediary. There are
several young men who are beginning to study drawing and are in
the same position of not being rich either. The thing that
gives one strength in such circumstances is not to be always
alone, but to be in contact and relation with others in the
same position. So you see, this is my great desire - that
through Mr. Schmidt I may have some chance to make the
acquaintance of some of the young artists here. Will you do
what I ask you to that effect, that is, write a little note to
I have made another pen drawing after “The
Woodcutter” by Millet (the woodcut that you sent me). I
think pen drawing is a good preparation, in case one should
later want to learn etching. The pen is also very useful in
accentuating pencil drawings, but one does not succeed in it at
once. As to the drawing after “Le Buisson” by
Ruysdael, I will work with the pen on it especially, and
prepare myself by using it on other drawings. Among others, I
have made one of the head of Dante which looks somewhat like an
etching. But it is not as easy as it seems.
In our interview Mr. Schmidt spoke about my entering
L'École des Beaux Arts here, but I told him frankly that
I thought in my particular case it would be much better to work
with some artist - especially since I have already finished two
series of the Bargues and am on the third, which I could
perhaps complete with the charcoal drawings by Allongé.
However, I have not quite dismissed the idea of L'École
des Beaux Arts; I might go there in the evening while I'm here
if it is free or not too expensive.
But for the moment my aim must be to learn to make some
drawings that are presentable and saleable as soon as possible,
so that I can begin to earn something directly through my work.
Because that is the necessity which is forced upon me. If you
write me, please address your letters care of Mr. Schmidt, for
I do not know whether or not I shall stay at this hotel any
longer. I think you will approve of what I say, for to
progress, it is necessary to continue with vigour.
Once having mastered my pencil, or watercolouring, or
etching, I can go back to the country of the mines or weavers
and work from life better than I can now; but first I must
learn more of the technique.
Well, I shall finish this letter, hoping you will approve of
what I have said.
I think that lodgings and perhaps food somewhat better than
that of the Borinage will also help to set me right again. For
I have undergone some misery in the Belgian “Black
Country,” and my health has not been very good lately.
But if I can only succeed someday in learning to draw well what
I want to express, I shall forget all that and remember the
good side of things, which also exists if one looks for it. But
still I must try to regain some strength, for I need all my
With a handshake,
At this time, Vincent was 27 year old
Vincent van Gogh. Letter to Theo van Gogh. Written 15 October 1880 in Brussels. Translated by Mrs. Johanna van Gogh-Bonger, edited by Robert Harrison, number 137.
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