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Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(July 1880)
... your land, your fatherland, is all around. So instead of giving
in to despair I chose active melancholy, in so far as I was
capable of activity, in other words I chose the kind of
melancholy that hopes, that strives and that seeks, in
preference to the... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(24 September 1880)
... clothes, one of them in an old army cape.
Although this trip nearly killed me and I came back spent
with fatigue, with crippled feet and in more or less depressed
state of mind, I do not regret it, because I saw some
interesting things and the... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(22 January 1882)
... many things get
dilapidated.
And sometimes one involuntarily becomes terribly depressed,
if only for a moment, often just when one is feeling cheerful,
as I really am even now. That's what happened this morning;
these are evil hours when one... |
Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(26 January 1882)
... agreed to keep up courage through all.
But I am so angry with myself now because I cannot do what I
should like to do, and at such a moment one feels as if one
were lying bound hand and foot a the bottom of a deep, dark
well, utterly helpless. Now... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(22 June 1882)
... this whole business of lying here ill.
Except for Sien, her mother, and for Father, I have not seen
anybody, which is indeed for the best, though the days are
rather lonesome and melancholy. Involountarily I often think
how much more gloomy and lonesome... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(22 October 1882)
... this is the composition .
I entirely agree with
what you say about those times now and
then when one feels dull-witted in the face of nature or when
nature seems to have stopped speaking to us.
I get the same feeling quite often... |
Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(1 November 1882)
... it all came
fresh into my thoughts again. I had collected and mounted my
hundred studies, and when I had finished the job, a rather
melancholy feeling of “what's the use?” came over
me. But then those energetic words of Herkomer's, urging... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(c. 11 December 1882)
... trouble is really
quite gone,
but I feel rather depressed at present, whereas at
other moments, when my work progresses well, I am quite
cheerful, and feel kind of like a soldier who isn't at home in
the guardhouse, and argues thus to... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(3 February 1883)
... they were on the old
Bridge of Sighs.
I have been feeling very weak lately. I am afraid I have
been overworking myself, and how miserable the
“dregs” of the work are, that depression after
overexertion. Life is then the colour of dishwater;... |
