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Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Emile Bernard
(c. 18 June 1888)
... weeks it has started to circulate again.
However, my dear friend, at the same time I have had, just like you, a fit of
melancholy, from which I would have suffered as much as you,
had I not welcomed it with great pleasure as a sign that I was
recovering... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Wilhelmina van Gogh
(c. 22 June 1888)
... often or of encouraging you to do the same. All this
correspondence does not tend to keep us, who are of a nervous
temperament, vigorous in case of possible immersions in
melancholy of the type you mention in your letter, and to which
I myself fall victim... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(17 October 1888)
... when you tell me what they are doing.
However that may be, my dear boy, look here - if you
complain of having nothing in your noodle in the way of
producing good stuff, just imagine how very much more
reason I have for feeling the same depression.... |
Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(c. 5 April 1889)
... He expects to stay in Marseilles.
I am well just now, except for a certain undercurrent of
vague sadness difficult to define - but anyway - I have rather
gained than lost in physical strength, and I am working.
Just now I have on the easel... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Paul Signac
(c. 10 April 1889)
... consisting of two very small
rooms.
But at times it is not easy for me to take up living again,
for there remain inner seizures of despair of a pretty large
caliber.
My God - those anxieties - who can live in the modern world
without... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Wilhelmina van Gogh
(30 April 1889)
... I look upon the whole thing as a simple accident. There
can be no doubt that much of this is my own fault, and at times I
have attacks of melancholy and of atrocious remorse; but you
know, the fact is, that when all this discourages me and gives
me spleen,... |
Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(22 May 1889)
... according to what Rey
said one day.
Now, the shock was such that even moving made me feel sick,
and nothing would have pleased me better than never to have
woken up again. At present this horror of life is
already less pronounced, and the melancholy... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Wilhelmina van Gogh
(16 June 1889)
... so many things in nature are parallel.
Though it is with an obstinate ingratitude that I feel my
health gradually returning, the fact is that I am quite well;
but, as I told you, my inclination to take up the joys of life
again can hardly be called strong.... | Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh
(c. 25 October 1889)
... to my going to
Arles just now.
And yet very often terrible fits of depression
come over me, and besides the more my health comes back to normal, the more
my brain can reason coldly, the more foolish it seems to me,
and a thing against all... |
